Recently, this song by Mercy Me has been speaking to my heart. Over the past nine months, things were rough at times to say the least, emotions going up and down. When I was sick with nausea and endless sleepless nights, the depression set in. I am thankful God gave me time during my pregnancy to be healed from this and to enjoy returning to work and subsequently saying goodbye to that phase of my life in a positive way. God has given me a healthy body and a healthy baby thus far, which is a magnificent praise. Over the past week, the depression has returned for no reason other than hormones most likely. I was also told by the doctor, that most likely since I had experienced depression during my pregnancy that I would in turn be at a high risk for postpartum depression. This was difficult news to hear. My hope was that once the baby was here, things would return to normal. My prayer is that I will experience great joy when I meet my baby boy for the first time. I know this will happen regardless of whether I am feeling down or not. I know God will provide during that moment and the days ahead. I have learned to praise God during this time even when I was hurting. So I pray, as the song says, bring me anything that brings You glory, and I know there’ll be days when this life brings me pain, but if that’s what it takes to praise you, Jesus bring the rain.
PS Things are getting better already. I don’t write this entry to worry anyone or receive attention. My hope is to by true faced and remove my mask that I often wear that everything is going great. God has been faithful and He will never change. I know He is with me and I hope that you find joy and peace in this knowledge as I do.
"Bring The Rain" by Mercy Me
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I prayHoly, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
4 comments:
Megan, I love you & am praying for you & Kirk, & your baby. Please call me any time you just need to be be heard. Though full of joy, those first few weeks with a baby can be trying. You can call me any time, even four in the morning b/c sometimes that's when you need a friend more than ever. God bless you & your family!!!
Meg- I appreciate your vulnerability in this post. Your heart is so precious. Preganacy has definitely been an adjustment for me and I don't know what to expect each day. So I admire how you are open to what God has for you in the weeks and months ahead. I'll be thinking about you and praying for you. Love, Rachel
Meg,
Thanks for your honesty...I think it is a beautiful post. I love you and can't wait to meet your little guy.
Love,
Julia
Megan-don't hesitate to call during those first days and weeks. Although I know you will be enamored with your precious baby, I also know that being home alone with your baby can still be lonely. We can be lonely together.:)
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